I slipe into the car and a threatening silence overcomes me
within my head i think "How can we be so close yet so far"
As i try to touch you i feel nothing
Not the fat in your cheeks or the soffness of your hair
I turn to look at you and our eyes never meet
If they did the emptyness would make me weep
The first cry the first sound
you sinked
Septemeber came quicker then you would think
And you were stuck with me
Now i come back to this moment
This routine
The words you speak wound me
And silent tears create oceans and seas
In my mind i scream and then the doubts begin to sicken me
Who are we?
How do i start a coversations with this man?
Are the words i speak so bland?
And if they are just give me a chance
The car pulls up and i feel distraught
reaching for your hand
I tremble
"Please forgive me dad"
But i'm letting go of this past
And if you can join me then hold my hand
And if not then
I Love You but these mistakes will not
BE MINE