On January 7th, 2013, I lost you.
One year later,
I still miss you more than you’ll ever know.
Every day I think of you, and my heart breaks.
I’m scared of this year.
Scared of the simple fact that I’m without you.
I have to trudge through yet another year without you by my side.
What about our plans for the future?
Who’s going to be there when I need a shoulder to cry on?
Who will I turn to for advice?
Who am I supposed to confide in?
Who’s going to stand beside me on my wedding day?
Who’s going to love me unconditionally?
It was supposed to be YOU.
I wish it was you.
But now it can’t be.
I miss you.
I miss your smile.
Your touch.
Your embrace.
I miss your laugh.
Your hugs.
Your random calls.
I miss hearing “I love you.”
“You mean more than anything to me.”
“I don’t know what I’d be without you.”
I needed you like I need air to breathe.
You were my other half, and now I have lost you.
What am I supposed to do now?
The best part of me was you.
Only a year together, but I had no doubt in my mind.
Forever sounded so good, with you by my side.
Now a year’s past without you, I still can’t believe it.
I don’t know how I’m supposed to get by without you.
You were my strength.
Without you, I am weak.
Why did you have to leave?
I see no future for myself without you.
No other love could ever stand against yours.
I see you in my dreams every night, but that’s not enough.
I need you here, right beside me.
I can’t fight it without you.
Every day, I feel myself slipping away.
And I hate it.
I hate being weak.
But I have no fire left inside me.
No need to fight the dark any longer.
You left, and I’m broken.
My heart cannot go on.
Sleep easy, my angel.
Now you’re safe in heaven.
I loved you then.
Now.
And forever.
No matter what happens.
“Forever and a day, you know that.”
I miss you every moment of every day.
I love you.
Goodbye.