That old tire swing, off the dock, by the sea
"Can you catch me?" you called as you tested gravity
Your body hung brilliant, suspended in air
I reached out to catch you, the next fall we'd share
But the one after that, the one so high
I wasn't there to catch you, not that time
I replay your fall every night in my head
I pray for a miracle every night before bed
The cuts on your wrist, the ones I didn't see
You hid them, how could you, I thought you trusted me
Your scars were your battles, so hard and so strong
I'd have told you I love you but now you are gone
No one to sing to long after the stars
No inspiration for songs on my dad's old guitar
You said you were sorry in your note just for me
But you weren't really, were you, broken eyes can't see
If you were here now, I'd hold you so close
Watch those old movies, make beans baked on toast
I'll never have that time to be alone with you
I'll never have that heartbeat to hear "I love you too"
Do you realize what you stole, those seconds, those days
People can be brilliant but their brilliance never stays
I want you with me now, away from everyone
I want to see you laugh again and see you carry on
Don't do this, I beg of you, just please don't be dead
Turn back the time, rewind the past, wipe away the red
I would do it for you, take the fall so you could fly
Why did you never ask me, why did you have to die
I hate you, you know that, you're selfish and you left
I take in breaths but I can't breathe, my heart dead in my chest
I can't just bury you, see your body lying there
I'll miss you forever, some things we were meant to share
I curl up by myself but they never go away
I always walk with everyone yet I'm alone every day
It hurt to be sad and It hurt to be scared
I'd take the pain a thousand times if I knew you cared
Oh please just come back and we'll try again
We'll laugh as we dance, and together we'll end
Not apart, oh no, not one by one
But in a supernova to shame our own sun
Your brilliance has left me and I put on my coat
I regret nothing but the note I just wrote