Up there in heaven you have been there for almost 13 years now. I wonder what it's like up there in heave. Is it cold? Is it hot? Most importantly what are you like? Are you tall? Are you short? Are you really proud of me or not? sometimes I wonder what your like up there in heaven. Are you the same as the day you were talked away from me? Are you smiling down on me? Are you happy that I made it this far without you? I'm doing good down here without you. Sometimes I wish you were here to see what I've done without you. Made it to high school without you here. I did it. I'm able to think about you and smile not cry without you because you are up there in heaven. I wish you were here to hold my hand when I go through those heartbreaks to hold me but I can't. you are up there in heaven. Sometimes I need you but I realize you aren't here you're you there in heaven. You are never coming home. It's like a 13 year deployment but there's never an end, there's never a scene of you running with your army greens on in to my arms. Never a time where i can call you up asking "How are you doing?" because you are up there in heaven. But daddy, will you remember one thing for me? I love you very much even if you aren't on Earth because you are up there in heave.