Am bellowing to the high havens
Am yelling for your attention
Am trying to find myself
But does such a thing exists
Am trying to find the ‘real me’
But has the lying become too much
Has the lying gotten to this point?
That I can’t even find myself
Did my lies destroy me?
Where is the real me?
Am bellowing to the high havens
Am yelling for your attention
Am trying to find myself
But it cannot be found
Have I lost myself this much?
That I can’t even tell when my emotions are real
Or fake?
Is this just a lost cause?
Will I ever find myself?
Or will I continue to drown in this never ending sorrow
Am bellowing to the high havens
Am yelling for your attention
Am trying to find myself
But is it too late
Have I lied too far?
To ever find my true self
Or does the ‘true me’ not exists
If that is so please tell me now
So I can stop this futile struggle
To find who I am
Am bellowing to the high havens
Am yelling for your attention
Am trying to find myself
But I can’t find anything
My heart is empty
My mind is silent
And my will is crumbling to pieces
Where is the true me?
Can’t you tell me?
Or has the true me been destroyed
Am I too late in looking for it?
Have I gone too far in the lying?
To the point that I can’t tell my truths from my lies
Has the boundary blurred so close together
That I can’t find myself anymore
Am bellowing to the high havens
Am yelling for your attention
Am trying to find myself
But maybe I really am too late
Maybe I have gone too far
If so please stop this suffering for me
I can’t find myself
So what’s the point in continuing this?
If I’ll never know the truths from the lies
Am yelling
Am shouting
Am crying
But nothings working
If the real is truly gone
Then please put this suffering to an end
If it truly is gone
Then please end this torture and pain
If the real me is truly gone
Then please
End this sorrowful life for me
Please end it for me