This year for my birthday
I thought I wanted expensive gifts to keep me happy
But in reality
I want to feel happy
I want to see my mom
Smile at me while she brings me my cake
Candles glowing through the dark
As she sings “estas son las mananitas”
I want to see her call me her baby as she
Tells me to blow my candles and to close my eyes and make a wish
I want her to look at me in awe and ask where the time went by
I want to see my dad
Look at his little girl and feel A proud feeling rise up in him
I want to see him smile and call me beautiful as I blow my candles
I want to see him take a picture of me
In my dress
And send it to his friends
Captioning it “my princess is finally 16”
I want to see my sister
Laugh at the silly pictures hanging on the sign and
Remember how stupid we were
I want to see everyone
For once
Smile and genuinely
Look happy for me and only me
For my birthday
I want to feel beautiful and special
I want to cover my once beautiful scars on my wrists
With a bracelet just for me by my dad
I want him to tell me I can a long way
And how proud he is that I stopped cutting
And how my skin looks beautiful without them
I want to smile and tell him I wouldn’t have done
It without him or my family
I want to fall asleep in my gown and remember
I want to fall asleep and not wish to die
I want to wish to wake up and see my
Happy perfect loving family
But those are just wishes
And wishes never come true