She puts on a fake smile
pretends she is okay
in reality though
she grows weaker every second
every second she thinks about him
its getting all too much
she just wants him to hold her for one last time
to feel his warmth wrapped around her
to hear his heart beat
his heart beat only for her
but that's all gone now
she is in pain
no one really understands why
no one really cares
she sits at home alone and cries
she'll play that same song over and over again
that song that she can relate to so much
its sickening
and if the pain get really too much
she'll take a blade to her skin
she just wants him to yell at her
yell at her about how much this hurts him
but that cant happen anymore
she didn't appreciate him enough
she was playing it safe
she just wants to see those words again over text
"hey darlin' <3"
those two words that used to lighten her day
now they only drown her
she needs someone now more then ever
and she really only wants him
she is too young for this
too young to be sad
too young to need someone this much
too young to miss someone this much
but she cant help it
now she just waits for him in her dreams
tries to create the perfect world
the perfect world that will never happen
in the perfect world
she would get one last hug
one last kiss
hear his voice one last time
nothings perfect though
her love for him was bullet proof
but he was the one that shot her