you
you have
emotionally physically mentally
ruined scarred destroyed
who I try to be and who I really am
I was
innocent
pure
naïve
young
I thought I was
rebellious
fun
smart
grown
ive only loved one after you
and that one I loved tried to love me
but every time they did- you flashed into my mind
haunting
taunting
teasing
mocking
ruining
me all over again
eventually you overpowered my thoughts
and the one I loved I cannot love now
and I can't tell them why
I don’t want help
I do
but I can't tell them
I really cant
no one will ever understand what you have done to me
emotionally
physically
mentally
you have ruined my
my past self
my present self
and my future self
and I still have to call
my first "love"