How come even though I never said “No” I feel taken advantage of?
How come I am petrified of seeing their faces or even going outside?
How come I feel grimy and washed up?
How come I didn’t stick up for myself?
How come I felt the need to do as my “friends” did?
How come me of all people didn’t stay true to who I was and said I would never be?
How come I feel worthless?
How come I don’t want to be with any other male ever again?
How come at the same time I feel like all I will ever be good for is selling my body?
How come I was the one who had to do all that s***?
How come no one even cares about my feelings?
How come everyone seems to know? Like it’s a virus being spread.
How come I feel inferior to the world?
How come I feel so much hate towards myself?
How come I deep down know it’s my fault, but so badly want to blame others?
How come I want to eat away the pain? Then maybe I will be unappealing and less likely to be f***ed.
How come I was never sober during these times?
How could I be so ignorant?