You consume my thoughts.
I know I have ruined you.
I broke something
that was already falling apart.
God, if I could take it back
all of it back
from the moment I met you
I would.
I would strip myself
of all those amazing memories;
just to spare you
the depression you say you feel
or felt.

Every time I close my eyes
I see your face.
Permanently etched
into my mind.
I imagine your pain
what I put you through
and it's enough to think
that I deserve to be miserable.

Honestly?
You deserve all the happiness in the world.
I hope one day
I'll be pining after you
and you'll turn me down
and I'll know how it feels.
I hope you have an incredible life.
I love you.
Always.