No I am not the civil one, I won't try to be. I'm the guy left behind from times that I've tried. Up and leave me for another guy? Make me feel like I died? These thoughts in my head are suicide, only so I can get this pain out of me. Out of my chest and into yours, your cold heart. My heart beats, it pumps pain, your heart beats, it pumps blood. I want this pain gone, there is no pain killer for this. I hate this writing now, only cause you liked it. Everywhere I go everywhere I look is you, is us, and all I feel is disgust. My dreary eyes from these tears, tears me apart from ear to ear. I broke down today over you, I hate you for what you've done. It sucks this pain can only be mended by your heart. The one you started out with, not this one now.