Forgive me father
Because I live as a sinner
I listen to "the devils music"
And I live a life of lies.
But my life
Is no longer in my hands
The voice inside my mind
Now controls me.
My actions,
My words,
And my sorrow-filled thoughts;
Are now darkened by a disease
That has proven deadly.

Please father forgive,
As I can no longer
Forgive myself
If I wrote
What my mind is yelling
The hospital would be my home.
The truth is,
A hospital cannot heal
This broken spirit
Those four walls of a psych ward
Cannot compete
To the damaged four walls
Of my mind

So father forgive me,
For I am afraid
That this shameful disease
May finally win
And take all I was
Or all I could ever be.