Everyone, everyday feels all different kinds of fear in life.
For the final exam coming up, almost hitting the car in front of you,
losing something or someone important, or even losing yourself.
But I think the scariest fear in the whole world,
is knowing something great will eventually end
and there is absolutely no way to stop it from happening.

People will try to understand and control everything,
but the uncontrollable passage of time
sends chills crawling down your spine,
mixed with sadness shown in tears of memories of happiness.

When you first start out and the ending is years away
you feel like there’s nothing to worry about,
you still have years of smiles, years of achievements to make yourself known.
But the years pass, faster than you thought they would,
and you get to the 1 year mark.
And you feel fear.
And you take a step back to think about all that’s just happened.
How much work you’ve put in, including al the pain and happiness,
and so suddenly the smile from reminiscing leaves your face.
It feels as if the ground came out from under you
and has left you to fall into the unknown.
That’s when it actually hits you,
there’s only one year left, one year until the final bow.

All of the years of smiles will become memories,
you watch as those older than you leave and know it’s coming,
the calendar already has a circle marking the exact date!
And I’m scared. Absolutely terrified.
Because I don’t want this to end.
I want my life to stay this way forever,
I don’t want to take my last bow, I’m not ready.
But I guess that’s why there’s still one year left.
Yet I know I must and I can’t change it.
It’s a huge storm heading right for me that I can’t stop,
I can only prepare for it,
because time will certainly torture me and make it fly by like all the years before.

It’s so scary because I don’t know who to go to for help.
No one can make it stop.
In fact, this happens to every person, multiple times throughout their life
and they’re just as scared of the unknown as I am.
The only difference is the outcome.
Will this be the final, final bow you take?
Or will you move on to a bigger stage?
Will the years you put in push you to something greater?
or will you become another person in the crowd watching someone else shine?
Don’t let all of the good memories of these moments rot in your mind.
Make more and expand on what you already know.
And yes in one year this will be my last bow with the people next to me
and I will treasure them forever.
But we’re not at the grand finale yet, not for me, anyway
we’re ending the last chapter of the start of the series,
about to open a locked door in which we have just found the hidden key.