How his green eyes
were fixed on me
The way I craved
his attention
yet cowered
from his
pine needle gaze.

I was intimidated
by his sincerity;
infatuated
with his words;
and his voice
was butter,
spreading
all over the evening.

We stood at the window
and he told me
everything he knew
Constellations and the
lights on the coastline
and everything he's
been through.

It was easy
Effortless
Like a movie.
He told me that one day
when's he's stacking books
on a library shelf
He'll see my name
and he'll sit down
and read the whole thing
right there
even the copyright statements
in the beginning.

He told me
I was refreshing and pure
But not in the virginity way
More like
Unadulterated
down to the core.

And I couldn't say anything
Didn't want to say anything
To ruin this night
as I was falling in love
with this boy
I couldn't see.

(Because surely
this is what love
must feel like)

It was like I'd known him
My whole life
but was just getting to know him
simultaneously.

And then his fingers
started to trace the outline
of my face and
Before I knew it

We were kissing.

His lips found mine
in the gloom
With a simple request.
Don't think about
the future,
because right now
We are here
and that's all that matters.
Just let it happen.
Tomorrow doesn't exist
and it doesn't need to

Because I am looking
at this boy
and he is the only one
in this vast world
who thinks the same things
I do
and he is saying
my thoughts aloud
and I'm hanging on
to each and every word
before they evaporate
Gone forever.

And all of this
emotion
needed to find
a way out of me

but it couldn't be the words
I love you
as much as I desperately
wanted them to be
Because it had only been
a day
the most unexpected
day
a gift from somewhere
up there
that will be scorched
in my brain
for a stupid amount of time
unable
to be effaced.