I have tried to retreat from the pain
But it is unavoidable

I have tried to become deaf to the words;
Numb to the pain;
Blind to the horrors

I have tried everything
None of it has worked

No amount of loud music can drown out the words
The words that scar me internally
The words that bruise me, cut me, the brutal words that have made me this
This cowering animal, shirking others, eluding the people
None of the music, whether loud and angry
Or soft and sweet
Can deafen my ears and save me

No amount of excessive work can distract me from the pain inside
The physical activity can only avert my attention for so long

Then I am caught again
Help captive by the words
Abused by the words

All else has failed, and so I make my final escape
It is not a pretty one
Not a pleasant one
But it is a final one
A permanent escape
My grand escape from the words