I need to tell you
(now,
before I slip out of sense)
about a feeling I got
drifting drunk across lanes.

I felt the world
begin to breath
heat
on my cheeks.

the world flows,
eternally.
last night,
I felt my hollowness
and the world flowed through me.
Wind
Whistled through Skin,
Made me Whole again.

never been
so high
or so low.
Imagine
the bottom of the ocean,
where no fishes go.
I was
an unhelmeted explorer
in the moon's empty glow.

I saw
houses, black
and filled with sleep.
everyone shoulda been up with me.

the passenger seat looked lonely,
and still stung
with your sweet sent.
your memory seemed to be
a stranger,
like everyone else.

darkness divided
into something deep
and filling.
this wasn’t nothing.
this wasn’t nothing.

hands griped the wheel.
back tightened and loosened.
I heard my heart beat.
I felt my soul
breath.

I became transfixed
by dots in the sky.
I sang to them.
told em,
"I won't slow, I won't slow.
I'm gonna fly
far above
the asphalt cage
deep into a voluminous dream."

above me on branches,
twisted
faceless dancers and marionettes.
or were they just leaves?

I passed the river,
trapped in its long fated path.
heard its pulsing ache,
a cry
for all the unfree.
but, the levees stayed,
and my tired heart
threatened to break.

I shook
myself weak.
the breathing
overpowered me.
I pulled over
and vomited
and sunk to my knees.

I realized
I only long
to forever breath
something colder than me.
easy and free,
more smooth and cleaner
than any liquor I've seen.

I wanted to scream
"Air oh Air!
dilute the sickness in me.
when I wake in the morn,
let me be clean.
no words
will stick in my throat.
they’ll flow out like wine
and fall at her feet."