The endless dark nights rise and consume. Every breath I take fills my mind with a toxic fume. I toss and turn in my sleep, wondering if there will be an end. I wonder if my shattered soul will find a way to mend. The world is on my shoulders and my ankles crack with every step. I put my right foot forward, but end up backwards with regret. I'm shoved towards my past, stumbling over mistakes. I pretend I'm not hurting, but that's never easy to fake. I huddle up, afraid of all there is to come. I wish I wasn't human; I wish I could be numb. I open my mouth to speak, but I can never find words to say. I want to scream for change, but I know I will never get my way. I no longer wish to be weak, I want to pick up a fight. But in this dark embrace, I no longer see the light.