She’s right.
This isn’t my fault.
But this guilt that isn’t my own is tearing me apart
This constant pain inside is never-ending
These scars on our hearts are ever-lasting
I’m trying to be better, but I’m trapped in despair
I’m holding on so tight to that last bit of hope
That I can’t even feel the blood flow to my fingers
I attempt to escape the screaming in my mind
But I will never get away, this is permanent
It’s the devil and the angel fighting on my shoulders
So loudly I can’t even hear my own thoughts
I don’t know what to do anymore
One half of my mind is begging me to hold on for just a little longer
Telling me that it will get better
The other is asking why I’m even trying.
Saying “you’ll never make it”
But my heart is bringing me back to my senses; I need to listen
It exactly what my Best Friend would say.
“Before you let go, remember why you held on for so long in the first place”
Just be Patient.