This world
Of mine
With it’s blacks, grays, and dark blues
But occasionally the
Bright yellow or white of
The hole at the end of the tunnel
Bland or colorful
It doesn’t matter
I HAD to choose this world
Nobody else but I
I have an STD
And a girlfriend
I’m 16 and masculine
But sometimes, in this body
I am shy, scared, and powerless
The STD is slowly eating up
My bright colorful world
Replacing that world with one
Full of bruising colors
And lots of mixed emotions
How do I tell her?
How do I tell her of the mistake I chose?
If I only took the medicine
The doctor prescribed for me
They say if I took it daily
The STD would go away
It never did
Not in the few months I swallowed the pills
So I took the risk
And stopped
Now,
The STD is back
But in a more, powerful way
Like the Devil
I have to tell her
But I don’t wanna lose her
She’s the best thing that has happened yet
Not the nights wekissed and kissed
Not the times we held hands and definitely
Not the ways we expressed our love to each other
We haven’t had sex yet
She wants to wait
But how longer will she
When I finally get up the courage to tell her?
This
World we live in
Is not the world that STDs choose to rule
That world among us
Is the worst you can ever imagine
But it’s OK
Because I will tell her tonight
Face-to-face
If she doesn’t want to stay
And support me
You can bet I’ll be sad
Thinking that I have chosen the wrong path
This world among us
Can ruin any kind of chance you think
You have of a relationship
And ruin any chance you have
Of support
But it’s high time for me
To blow up that world
And set the horrible STD
Back on it’s way
Out of my body and far, far away
From MY world
The world where I have everything
I have ever wanted.