Sitting In a library blasting A Day to Remember in my ears isn’t ideal.
But when you wait until last minute o do an assignment, it seems just perfect.
Let it flow out they say
If only it were that simple day by day
Writing is like rocket science.
It’s either one way or you’re wrong
Well, here goes.

Amber, the most contradicting girl you could ever meet.
She is a cheerleader, and softball player.
Tap dancer, Girl Scout, and straight- A student.
She sticks to where her mind is, and chooses to ignore certain things around her
Most don’t like it,
But she will change to keep those she cares about.
Wait, this doesn’t seem right.

Should I change who I am to keep some in my life? Is it worth it?
Is it bad that these thoughts are going through my mind?
Back on subject, back on subject.

My best friend is my mom, the one person who has never had a doubt on me.
Always has my back. Hates you if I hate you.
Is this sad?

I go to a massive amount of concerts, but can never seem to get on my feet.
I go to shows so I meet people who are like me.
They have the same problems as me.
An instant connection.
I am a part of a family who just can’t catch a break.
Some think I am a pyro.
I’m not. It is something was finally good at in life other than school.
I get into the great outdoors, get some wood. Build the base, and whoosh, there go all my problems
With the cracking of the fire and burning of all the flames, I am alone, and I am happy.
I’m relaxed, which is something I barely feel anymore

I’m a dork, a nerd, annoying, weird, odd, whatever you want to call me.
I can have low self esteem,
I can also let others say things to me, but not blink an eye to say something back
I lost some friends being the way that I am.
But I gained a family in the same time

Who I used to be is not who I am anymore.
I won’t go back for the sake of others.
I will open my mouth if I feel you are worth my time.
But other than that.
I am a Girl Scout, 12 years in the making and a darn good cookie seller
I am a concert goer who can’t get on her feet, but I go because I meet those just like me.
I am a cheerleader. Joined because I wanted something girly in my life and I wanted to be like my mom
I am a softball player, because i wanted to stay active and try to make my baseball playing dad proud of me
I am a straight- A student in a public school because it comes easy to me and I like being 20 minutes away from home.
I am odd because it is who I am and I am not going to change if I don’t care about you.
I am annoying and weird because I am usually in my own little world because I don’t like those in the real one.
I am loud because I have more to say than the normal human being.
I have low self esteem because I let another person’s words get to me.
I am sitting in a library listening to A Day to Remember doing a creative writing assignment because I waited until the last minute to do it
I am me. And this is a piece of writing I will be proud to put my name on.
A single page is like a book, it can give you the insight to everything you see.
Now you know who I really can be.
Just me.