Perfectionism and low self esteem,
A recipe for disaster,
A less than perfect situation,
A constant reminder of your flaws.
Hatred of yourself,
Hatred of others,
Hatred of who you've become.
Isolation,
Pain,
Hunger.
Can you really be alive if every part of you seems to be dead?
How did it get this bad?
Why am I so alone?
This feeling eats me away.
This feeling ruins my relationships.
This feeling is killing my strength.
I'm letting everyone down,
Hey there goes my future.
All those years of hard work,
Gone.
All those pains of swollen muscles,
Gone.
All those days of being the best,
Gone.
You would say you look great,
but it's never enough.
What's 1 pound, 2 pounds, 10 pounds more?
It doesn't matter because it will never be enough.