One day, I was smiling.
In a blink of an eye,
I was dying dreadfully.
I still can't believe
The things I had done.
Where it led me to lose everything
And everyone,
Even my true love.

Why did I do it?
To fulfill what was missing,
But all it did
Was leave my world
Crashing down.
It was like having no parachute
To save me,
Or like someone had just
Ripped my heart out,
Leaving me no emotions
For me to feel.
My heart is now
An abandoned ship in a lake.

Why did I do the things I did?
It was because I didn't deserve
The life I was living in.
So what was the point of living, anyway?
Suffocation would be the method
To end all frustration and misery,
Within me.