I want to run and hide
Hide from all the pain
I have more than one side
It’s like the sun and the rain

Chase the dreams I once believed in
Long the nights where I do not cry
I know I’ve made more than one sin
Sometimes I feel like I would rather die

Alone in a crowded room
This feeling is one I cannot escape
The only escape is to my tomb
I feel like I am a deformed shape

I promised myself I would never get this way
Nightmares seemed to turn into reality
My life went from colors to grey
My life is now a form of brutality

With the light slowly fading from my day
I am left alone in the dark
I wonder if ill really be okay
For this is not a journey I am ready to embark

I have failed to be the person I wanted to be
My life is changing in the blink of an eye
Maybe this is just my destiny
Maybe it is time for me to say good-bye

I go along as if nothing is wrong
When everything is crumbling down
I wish I could say that I am strong
But the tears I cry could make me drown

I am torn from the life I once had
I’m like shattered glass
Always feeling depressed and sad
I wish all this would just pass

The reflection from the mirror is not me
It’s like I am being haunted
It is not me if through my appearance you see
Everywhere I go I am being taunted

I want to sleep and never wake
I want this pain to go away
These are feelings I cannot shake
I just want to die in bed while I lay

Drowning in my sorrows
Wishing they would disappear
There may not be any tomorrows
As I sit here, down my cheek rolls another tear

My life is like a black hole
I just keep falling deeper
It seems to be sucking up my soul
My goals are slipping out of reach, becoming steeper

My days are getting darker and colder
Im falling deeper into depression
No weight is lifted off my shoulder
I don’t know how to reach progression

Self-harm seems to be the only way out
Maybe one or two or many more “scrapes”
Life fills my mind with too much doubt
Self-harm may be my only escape.