Well, when I was born, my birth dad abandoned me. He told me that I was the biggest mistake he ever made and he said that he wanted nothing to do with me and that in his eyes I was a piece of dirt. He said he hated me and left as a child, and my whole life I have wondered why he left me and what I did. When my grandma died, he was at her funeral and it was the second time I have ever seen him. He was consoling my little brother, whom I have seen seven times, and he had his arm around him and just looked at him with love, and it made me feel hated and unwanted. I was jealous. I didn't understand why he was so loved and I was just a huge mistake. My little brother is three years younger than me. Since the time of my birth, I have been adopted twice, and my whole life I have felt unloved and abandoned. But I am happy with my family know.