I feel like I'm trapped right now. I've been to four different high schools and I feel like I'm to blame for it. Like if I wasn't such a jacka** then maybe I could've somehow survived an entire high school and I could've gotten the diploma or be close to graduating by now. But my disorder has only made things worse for me and it's very difficult for me to survive social settings without feeling overwhelmed.I can't even go to a f***ing Target without feeling a little bit overwhelmed. But then there's also how my parents are very overprotective of me even though I'm 18 now. They still treat me like a little kid. And I think that if they'd just let me be me without putting up so many restrictions then,I might be able to get a taste of what the real world is like and not be staying in the house,moping around,not interacting with anyone,except this one girl on Facebook and that's it! That's my social life. I have one friend on Facebook that I talk to a lot online and sometimes in real life we'll do something together. But she's a busy girl,she's a nanny and she has her boyfriend whom she's already engaged to,so she doesn't really have a lot of time left over for me,which is a shame because she's one of the few people in this world that I really respect. And it breaks my heart that I can't see her more often because I love hanging out with her and just having fun.