I glance down
My rough blue jean jacket covered with big bright yellow sunflowers.
Tiny golden sequins scattered all around
Sparkling like diamonds in the burning sun.
Two spiky little pigtails bounce around on my small head
My straight fluffy bangs
Hang down my forehead like a waterfall
Tickling my eyes.

The cool October breeze surrounds me.
Everything seems happy,
Happy but wrong.
Panic begins to rise in me
As my world smears into a blur
The heart-breaking thought hits me.
Realizing that everything in my life
Is about to drastically change,
My mind begins to race.


Jumping from one sudden thought,
To another puzzling question,
Leading to no reasonable conclusion.

Feeling my brain
About to burst right out of my skull.
The rising heat of my tears




Covering the top sensitive surface of my blue eyes
The colors of my face quickly escape
Only leaving behind pink rosy cheeks.
My lips begins to tremble
Shaking violently as I forge back the tears.
My finger curls around my bottom lip


Like a hook trying to keep it still
Slipping away to a new world
Of traumatizing, unbearable pain…