The door slams behind me as I fall to the floor.
I scream in pain, yearning for the help of others,
Praying to God to save me from this hell.
My face contorts with agony and I yell in anguish.
My mind chants the same mantra over and over.

Forgive me father, for I have sinned.
Please Lord in heaven, remove me from this torment.
My soul is helplessly pinned
I’ve been put through a hell only you could prevent.
Save me and make it all end.

I slice deep into my skin,
breaking the thin layer of protection he’s given me.
reveling in the rush it brings me.
I watch as I bleed myself out, ounce by ounce.
Tears slap my legs, blending with the blood.
Pink rivers run down my thighs and onto the floor,
Representing how wretched I truly am.

Forgive me father, for I have sinned.
Please Lord in heaven, remove me from this torment.
My soul is helplessly pinned
I’ve been put through a hell only you could prevent.
Save me and make it all end.

The capsules slide effortlessly down my throat
I indulge in the acidic taste it leaves behind.
Sinking to the bottom of my stomach,
I feel them beginning to work
My mind is aching, then numbing
But still repeating the mantra

Forgive me father, for I have sinned.
Please Lord in heaven, remove me from this torment.
My soul is helplessly pinned
I’ve been put through a hell only you could prevent.
Save me and make it all end.

I tighten the ragged rope around me,
Relishing in the scratches it leaves on my neck.
Tears are streaming down my face,
I know it’s over.
My mind is gone, no longer thinking.
But I look up to the sky, hopeful
Asking one last time.

Forgive me father, for I have sinned.
Please Lord in heaven, remove me from this torment.
My soul, is helplessly pinned
I’ve been put through a hell only you could prevent.
Save me and make it all end.

I take a small step forward,
Leaving it all behind.
As I wait for it all to be over,
I realize this is it.
He’s finally answered my prayers.
It’s all over.