I am defiant
Terrified
My heart quivers with each beat it takes
Each with more audacity than the last.

Each day the girl from my innermost depths
Takes one step more, than the day before.
Until, she becomes confused
And takes two steps back,
But never forward enough to be who I really am.

I hide away, far far away.
Sounds like a fairy tale but,
It’s not.
A self imposed prison is, perhaps, a better
Explanation.

I am a million people in one day
But first and foremost I am the capricious teenager.
Then to escape myself
I embody others to wipe my hands of myself.

I am much happier this way.
As a whole you can enjoy humanity
Without dealing with yourself or the
Human Race.

Beautiful as it is
All dreams must end
And I am chained to my life.
This bodily vessel locked is my prison.

Never to be who I am
Or who I am meant to be
Until I can learn to love myself,
Rekindle my love for the race,
And break my chains.