You don’t realize what you have until it is gone,

I never believed that,

I also never believed you would be gone,

I though you would always be there,

Always there to tell me

“I am always here for you.”

If I would have known

Known it was the last time

The last time to see your smile

The last time to hear you laugh

I would have cherished every second

I would have realised how much you meant to me

I knew you were my friend

But I didn’t realise

You were one of my closest friends,

We shared everything,

Including birthdays,

You stood by me,

When I felt my life was falling apart,

I wish I could have been there for you,

When your life was falling apart,



The last time I saw you,

You were not smiling,

You didn’t laugh,

When the word I said hit your ears,

A look of shock covered your face,

I remember the words like I said them yesterday,

“I hate you. I wish you would stay out of my life”

I realize now those word were nothing but lies,

I wish you could have stayed in my life,

But, you were needed some were else,

And now I know you look over me everyday,

You watch as I make the same mistakes,

The ones you told me not to,

You also watch as I achieved,

Everything you wanted me to.

You will forever be in my heart,

And I miss you.