Im sitting here and thinking
"GOD I HATE YOU!"Im yelling
It at the top of my lungs
But the I think about it
The more i think of you
I know i could never hate you.

Who am i kidding?
I will always love you with all
Of my
Bones.

But what makes it worse is while
I sit here and think of you
I'm talking to my boyfriend,
The first one Ive had since you,
I'm telling how no one could Compare
To my feelings for him,
When in reality he stands nowhere
Near you.

I want to love him
I want to love him more then
I could ever love you.

But i hurt you to much for you
To love me again, I suppose its
Something I'll have to accept, I'm Suppose to hare you with all i
Have.

But I dont, not even a little,
And I just want my hate for you
To be true
I want to hate youso much
That it rots my core.

Instead my gut is filled with
The butterflies
You left behind
And my core is nothing
But my love for you.