all of her beauty

today I sat there
with her on my lap
staring at all of her
and her perfection

it’s like,
no matter how much
she annoys me
and no matter how much
i sometimes want to kill her
i feel myself
falling for her

and part of me
feels like this is so
so wrong
i cant like her

she’s straight
and i should be too
and aside from all that
she’s my best friend

how f***ing cliché is that?
falling for the g******
best friend
i will not let that happen to me

but no matter how much
i try to put these feelings
out in the cold
they’re there

so i stare at her beautiful lips
and contemplate
everything in my mind
and how much i want to kiss her

because the thing is,
she’s so beautiful
and so delicate
and so perfect
and she doesn’t see it all

i know that i cant ever
be with her
but that’s okay because
i’ll be happy with staring at her beauty.