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April 16th, 2011

October 19, 2012
By Powla SILVER, PHX, Arizona
Powla SILVER, PHX, Arizona
8 articles 0 photos 20 comments

Favorite Quote:
You can complain that roses have thorns, or you can rejoice that thorns have roses.
-Ziggy-


I can’t tell if the water running on my face
is from the faucet or from my own eyes.
The tears that tell what my words couldn’t: I hate him.
I hate him.

The blood on my arms tell what words couldn’t:
I have a secret to tell you.
The screams I contain are silent,
and hurled into the blanket in the middle of the night,

when the voices can’t harm you more than in the daylight.
The tears are hidden beneath a pair of glasses and soapy hair,
and the scars are hidden beneath the crooked smile and short stature,
giving the image of any regular, silly, fifteen year old with a few height problems.

their words on paper tell me what they couldn’t:
that they’re cowards.
their actions tell me what words couldn’t:
that they’re scared as hell from their sins.

their filthy hands have tried to wash the dirt away
the evil of their actions.
their minds have so desperately tried to erase
the fact that the person they did it to is still here.

my hands scratch uselessly against my flesh,
trying to wash away the painful memories,
my razor slices my flesh,
cutting away the feeling to have a reason to weep.

their faces tell what their voices can’t:
they hate the world they themselves have created.
their conversations tell people what they think:
life is hell, make it hell for someone else and it might get better.

my hopeful smiles tell no one what my voice desperately wants to:
I am an abandoned child who needs love and care
though my actions say that
I don’t need anyone in this world to survive.

but the face you see here today
is the offspring of fear and agony,
the result of two worlds colliding together unexpectedly,
and the consequence of a prolonged secret held in silence.


The author's comments:
I dont remember why i wrote this, but i know who it's meant for, and it hurts to remember but its better to get it out. to speak truth

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on Mar. 31 2013 at 7:52 am
Nightcat PLATINUM, Dublin, Other
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Favorite Quote:
I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best.”
― Marilyn Monroe

Brilliant love it just love it. Massive emotions in this poem. Hope you will writting more poems like that !!!!! Good Luch!

Powla SILVER said...
on Mar. 25 2013 at 11:54 am
Powla SILVER, PHX, Arizona
8 articles 0 photos 20 comments

Favorite Quote:
You can complain that roses have thorns, or you can rejoice that thorns have roses.
-Ziggy-

thank you. i got help 

on Mar. 18 2013 at 5:40 am
thatunknownthing DIAMOND, Dubai, Other
67 articles 0 photos 211 comments

Favorite Quote:
"Yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery, but today is a gift; that's why they call it the present"

Whoa. emotional, deep, I felt like I just finished a tour into your head.  But I hope you really don't cut yourself- No one is worth cutting for!