Dear Dad

June 15, 2011
A single shot
shattered the stillness
of dawn.
It stole silence



A single tear
wet mother’s eye
as she bore the news
with the strength of
A Widowed Woman.

For that morning
at seven forty-eight
marker her rebirth.
no longer wife, mother, lover
now: widow, parent, loner.

A single thought
crossed my mind:
Is he coming back?
...or is this for good?

And after that,
my feelings changed.
Sadness faded.
Anger flamed.
Pity waned, and
only love remained.

Regret, remorse, denial
all ran their courses.
I blamed it on everyone,
including you.

I feared to admit
that it didn't affect me—
not for lack of understanding
but for lack of loss.

Because you were only there
to yell...

Mr. Bipolar Dad.
Excusable? Perhaps.
Bearable? Never.

Yes, I love(d) you, dad.
but only as
an obligation.

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kalierose94 This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. said...
Jul. 4, 2011 at 10:59 pm
thank you all so much! i really appreciate the support and I am currently attending a summer program to refine my craft, so expect some new stuff soon and please check it out!!! :) 
Anagam replied...
Jul. 5, 2011 at 9:18 am
You are welcome :D
Anagam said...
Jul. 4, 2011 at 9:59 am

I enjoyed reading your poem! :D It is very deep like losthim said. You have a unique poetry style :) Keep writing!

If you have any extra time please check out my poems! Thanks soo much. :)

lostnhim said...
Jul. 4, 2011 at 12:40 am
Whoa!!! Deep!!!! Great poem, you have a lot of talent. I really enjoyed reading this.
willowwriter said...
Jul. 3, 2011 at 9:24 pm
I can relate to this poem. It is very good. Keep writing
PennyM.L said...
Jul. 3, 2011 at 3:53 pm
I really felt this, for me it's somewhat relatable. keep writing! :)
Alice_C replied...
Jul. 4, 2011 at 12:38 am
wow this is very emotional and touching. i've found though that pain, anger, and lost help to make great writing. i'm sorry about you dad. By the way could you look at some of my work, please?
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