For the first time since it happened,

she allowed herself to think.

Deep sobs racked her body.

Why did I think about it?

she asks herself.

She started thinking about everything.

Why he wouldn't want her.

She knew all these things before.

but I guess for once she hoped.

Now she's staring at herself

in the bathroom mirror

black make up all over her face.

This is where hope got her.

She hoped.

Decided to take a chance for once.

Look what it got her.

A horrible day.

dreading everything.

leaving her friends.

and black make-up on her face.

She hoped.

Look where it got her.

Standing in the bathroom

looking at herself in the mirror.

Wondering why she thought at all