Why do I feel like this?

Why are my emotions so confusing to navigate?

Why can’t my heart,

or my mind,

agree?
Or even decide?

Nothing feels right.

I just want to be noticed 

and seen 

and loved 

and appreciated.

Just

like 

you.

Nobody seems to get me.

Nobody seems to see me.

Nobody seems to like me.

Nobody seems to empathize

or even

sympathize. 

Life is so confusing.

Nothing makes sense

in

my

mind.

Why can’t my brain just be somewhat,

relatively, even slightly, “normal”?

I’m always passed off as

the “smart one”

I don’t get addressed by 

my name

I am simply,

The Smart One.

I am so much more than

a brain.

I am a person, supposedly whole 

Beautiful and loving and caring

Wanting to give my soul, 

and patiently waiting to get

some kindness in return..

I know this probably sounds like I’m being 

self-centered

But I’m trying here. 

To balance my life with others and.

It’s. 

Not. 

Helping.

At all.

If someone would help me.

This would be so much easier and 

I’d be of more use to others.

Please, help.