I feel a constant weight upon my chest

A certain darkness that won't let me rest

Each day is like a constant test 

So I just stay in my nest 

The world around me seems to fade

And my colors start to turn a cold gray

I smile, but it's all a charade

a ‘fun’ game

A new blame 

and it fools no one, not even me

I feel all alone

Even In a crowded room, 

like it’s all people I don’t know 

Like I’m far from home

No one can hear my silent cries

Or see the tears that I don't show 

I long to feel the sun again

To bask in its warmth 

But all I feel is endless rain

That washes none of my pain away