You ask me what i mean

And i wonder why

There has to be an answer

For everything you don’t understand

I pull out a dictionary

trying to break this down

The words swim together in my tears

You don’t understand why i’m crying

These words aren’t in your dictionary

Hurt is a figment of my imagination

And pain is a synonym for weakness

Breakdown is just proof of faulty engineering

You tell me i have a choice

Then i find that the

doors are all locked

windows sealed shut

No gusts of wind will sway you.

You tell me it can be easier next time

But I don’t know

How to fix this

I tell you i feel like i'm drowning

But you’ve never drowned before

I ask you to picture it

But your imagination is limited

How can you drown with your head above water you ask?

You tell me to say what i mean

But i don’t know what i mean

You tell me you love me

But i don’t know what you mean

I tell you i love you

But i don’t know if i mean it

You ask me

If i want to die

I say no

You ask me

if i love you

I say no

I can never say what i mean