Mom?

Hello?

Are you alright?

Please put down the bottle even if it's just for tonight

I miss you

Do you miss me to?

Do your eyes sting when you think about me?

Or are you sitting with your dog smiling with glee?

It's been 5 months since we've spoken 

There's never a day where my heart isn't broken

aching for your hugs 

but instead getting silent shrugs 

no one knowing what to say

but I'll tell them about how I'm okay

about how I don't miss you any more 

how when you left we locked that door

you sent me a letter

telling me about how you're better

but words fly around going up and down

you know it's a very small town

whispers everywhere I go 

but they don't actually know 

all the long nights crying 

how when you left my hope stopped surviving 

I wish I could go back to May

It was the last time your blood wasn't poisoned with Chardonnay 

We had conversations then 

they didn't end with us screaming until 10

we actually joked 

and I'll admit I got a little chocked 

caught on a dream

that we could someday be on the same team

but sometimes I think you knew 

you couldn't really make the switch from fizzling beer to Mt. Dew 

I think about you all the time 

all your things are fading with dust and grime

maybe you'll come back clean 

but I have to remember you'll always feen 

pining after a drop of intoxicating delight

our family is now completely out of your sight 

so good night mom

maybe next time you'll call me

and I'll be waiting 

for you to drag yourself out of that intoxicating sea