I would like to know why it started

That out of nowhere I see nothing.

I'm so alone in my thoughts

And my ideas dominate me all the time

The mirror and food don't go together.

I just start eating and my world ends.

All I desire is to be accepted,

When did I stop loving myself?

That I want that thinness so much,

And I destroy everything at once,

All my life I've wanted to be someone I couldn't be,

That girl so perfect.

Alone and empty, lost in agony,

Silent and fearful without being able to stop this person who,

Inside me, I possess, and it is not letting me be myself

Shame and guilt just destroy my soul

That I can’t be calm

I feel like I’m dying and yet I can't.

If only I remembered what trust was

And in the same way, peace will return

I just have to believe

And in God have faith.

Interrupted my innocence

For that cruel friend,

dressed in lies

That I believed her day by day

Thinking that one day I would feel accepted.

We are in the same space going to the same side.

I close my mind to the truth and only believe in your truth

You have me close and I just want to escape

But no matter how hard I try, you're always there

And in a way, you won't leave . . .

I try to pray and I don't know how

I try to learn but I can't understand

How much pain is there

In such a small heart.