do you ever think about me?

do you think about what could’ve been if you stayed that night?

do you lay awake at night wondering if you did something wrong?

do you cry yourself to sleep knowing that it was toxic but you would go back again a million times to try it differently?

because i do

i think about how i should've seen it coming 

i think about if there was anything i could’ve done to prevent it, to stop it, to heal it

i think about how it was my fault

i think about how you were just using me to add another checkmark to your list 

i think of her and how i should warn her of the pain she will endure

i think about how there could’ve been so much more

i think about you 

i always think about you 

but do you ever think about me like i think about you?