The weight of the world can’t fit on my shoulders but-

I still try to hold her

Understanding that we are one and the same

She is misunderstood and -

she is my fate

A broken vessel used for destruction and hate

Created from love and loss-

She is heaven and hell

Brought together and made to be a weapon 

To threaten

My life is her target 

A red bullseye that she has been waiting to hit

I have made it easy for her

I have let my guard down with the understanding that she would attack-

Follow me in the dark and then stab me in the back

I got what I wanted

I got to see the mess I had created

The part of me that I hated 

The part of me that had waited so long to latch on 

I have been hurt by the hands of my own creation

A mountain of problems and an endless amount of exceptions

She is a frame of mind that has brought me to shame

That has brought so much pain-

And has placed so much blame

She is misunderstood

She is broken

She is heaven and hell

My fate and my worst enemy

We are one and the same