It's been officially 1 month . 1 month since we went our separate ways . Maybe it was for the best . I've been doing some thinking this past month . I don't know if you remember but we had this inside joke from our awkward first kiss . You looked at me with those amazing green eyes, smiled at me and put your fist under your chin. I wasn't trying to ruin the moment but as you leaned in I laughed , you asked me why I was laughing and I said that you had reminded me of Benjamin Franklin when you did that pose , and it just kinda stuck . I loved you , And I will always love you but you lied to me , hurt me . You didn't care about my feelings, you just pushed them aside until you were ready to deal with them . You did that to me . And all those days I spent helping you recover from the hospital , I never left you . I had always been there for you , always there when you fell , when you thought you weren't good enough . Those days you would think about giving up. I was there , not her . I was there , I just want to scream it in your face that it was me . Sitting on your bedside waiting for you to wake up, it was me .I don't know how to make you see that love . What's so special about her? What could I have done to make you stay? Make you love me the way I loved you . All those days I spent teaching you how to walk again , eat again , talk again . I put my life on hold to catch yours when mine was falling apart . I can now admit I was falling apart . I really do hope you're doing great with her . Just in case you're wondering, I still have all your things , our things . Your hoodies that smelled like you , the flower bear you got me for our first valentines , our photo booth pictures . I hid my feelings to help you with yours . It makes me upset because no matter how bad you are to me , I could never hate you , never dislike you, never put you at fault . Never not love you . You were my soulmate . My Benjamin Franklin . I never got to tell you how I felt . Never had closure . Now I pass by your house and I put my head down . I was holding on to the beginning of our relationship . The feeling of happiness , feeling of peace , feeling of love . When you hugged me it felt like the world stopped moving . When you looked at me I felt butterflies in my stomach . When you would tell me how pretty I was I would feel like I was floating . When you told me I was the only one I believed you . I put my trust in you , I felt safe with you , felt at home with you . And now that's over . I fought and fought for you . Did what I could to protect you . Protect you from hate , from the negative people . The people who prayed for your downfall my love . You hurt me and left an impact in my life that I never thought would be possible . And now I'm not giving you that power . I'm freeing myself of you . Letting go . I will never let myself get that bad ever again , I won't let you make me that bad ever again . I am free . Sorry love .

Love , Her