Going through these old messages

I didn’t keep them all

I wish I could go back and change what I did

I never meant to fall

Maybe it was meant to break

Maybe we were never made to be

But I still wish we made it out ok

Cause I can’t stop hearing your name

And everytime it sounds 

I can help but wonder

Do you still think of me

Like I still think of you?

I know I’ve moved on

But it hasn’t changed my doubts

We ended on a bad note

I can feel it still

The tension it built

And the lies that we said

The regrets that I have

Wish I could take it all back

It’s too late now

but I hope you know

I still think of you

And I hope you’re okay

I just hope you still remember me

Not as the one who did what she promised never to do 

but as the one who loved 

and made a mistake

Or more as one who loved,

loved too many for her to handle

so she chose to lose

in a gambling game 

Even if the game cost her 

all of her money

I hope that’s how you remember me

Because I know that’s how I remember myself

I’ve lost that girl now

and I’m a woman fighting off the moon

because it was under that same moon

That I sinned against you

And it is under her same name

That I still am

But under a new vow

To protect even if it means hurting myself 

Because it killed me to see you so angry

So destroyed

Because you thought I was someone I was not

But I did too

So even though I lost that girl

It’s just another missing piece of me

as I’m still the Broken, Big Puzzle

And you’re a part of me forever