I’m on the roof 

and it’s 12.05 

I’m staring down 

at the city lights. 

My ears are closed 

with all kind of songs, 

especially the ones 

that remind me that you are gone. 

I’m in my room, 

I’ve shut the light. 

I’m in the dark 

trying to ease my mind. 

While you’re out there dancing,

laughing with all your friends,

holding on to someone’s waist 

while I don’t even dare to think about someone else. 

How am in the dark breaking 

while you’re under the lights having fun? 

this was supposed to be the day 

of you and me forgetting we ever had a past. 

How am I falling apart 

when you are doing alright?

How did I let myself get to this?

How long until we recollide?

I miss you terribly, 

to the point where I can’t feel, 

but I don’t want to see your name on my screen 

because I’ll be forced to resist. 

Resist the smile I adore, 

the touch I long, 

the hug I aim, 

my beloved yesterday.

But I don’t miss the pain

So I should go on.

Why can’t I go on?