I see a girl who is not worth it

When it comes to love I am unfit

Is this a nightmare

Help is never right there

I’m fine with my body

I scream with a plea

“I really hate my face

Why can’t I just erase?”

Isn’t it the other way around?

I feel weighted and drowned

And you all watched

While I make art

“Gifted kid burnout”

Intelligent without

A reason to go on

No reason to go beyond

That's what they call it

But I can’t admit

That I need so much help

And all I can think is “Whelp”

Hiding behind a mask 

Because they never asked

Waiting till it cracks and breaks

Since it was all fake

Smiling through the pain

While you watched again

When I cut my wrists

Happy I will no longer exist

I know I have sinned

And I can’t help but grin

My fate is to die

So please do not cry

What have I done to deserve this

Can’t help but to reminisce

I am an actress

And my bouquet is made of black roses