The night we actually started to talk,

A coincidence

Seemingly fate lined out in chalk,

Your heart dense

You had cramped so much in there

So much pain and stress

But to say I didn't relate would be unfair 

However, the faith to confess…

That's another story

One that would take far too long

And that would get far too gory

You'd have to be crazy to come along

To enter the door marked top to bottom with warnings

But there you were

A door especially for you where you would soon take refuge for many mornings

But that's just the way you are

That door took no time to be branded with your name

Except that wasn't your door to brand

That door to my soul won't ever be the same

I started to bend to every demand

That wasn't me anymore, 

Merely a vessel that held my memories

For you, I fell to the floor

You became the answer to all my worries

Even then you still yearned for more

You didn't just want my soul

You wanted my body to explore

And despite my doubts, You took control

Despite the way you invaded my body

I still trusted you

Even though I was losing myself with each desire I embodied

I still trusted you

Until in one phrase you came into view

Your intentions and desires clear

But justice was something I couldn't pursue

What if I was wrong

Just being dramatic like I always was

But Taylor kept me strong

Kept me thinking of them as a cause

Something to keep going for,

A reason to think of myself

And even as I started to restore

I felt so little care for myself

But there was a last straw

The moment you reached inside

Stole Peppermint, you broke the one enforced law I had,

Despite the lack of care for myself the system resides in me

And it'll forever be my purpose to protect them

You took advantage of her, promised her the world

From you, wery, their dreams stem

And without thinking they let loose and they unfurled

But I wasn't ready to let you take advantage

I stepped up and for once, ripped the duct tape from my mouth and said NO

And despite the pain, I seem to manage

You left, you finally left, leaving me so low

And things returned to normal

Only for a precious moment though

Until after only a small quarrel

You return and my brain returned to addiction

But you were different

No longer blinded by my rose-colored glasses

I saw you, you weren’t magnificent

I could see you and your advances

The false comfort and safety I had once felt in your embrace

It’s all so fake now

The image of you I had figmented, I now had to erase

It was so clear yet so distorted now it was almost hard to allow

And with seeing the true you, I had no reason to stay

Retreating into my shell and falling yet again into a depressive episode

This one however was here to stay 

Even after you step aside

That last message following me everywhere

You loom over my shoulder with whatever I do

And despite my efforts, you stayed there for years to come

Even now I still let you control me

But with the trance, I had come from

Adleast now, I’m mostly free