its all I ever known since I could remember,

toxicity, fussing and very hard unconditional

love. too young to understand at first,

small mind, big heart, hidden from what was yet to come.

as I am older, more understanding, less kept in the dark,

I ask myself what to do. I question my self ability,

if I was the issue or was it you. I want to be held,

to be nourished and loved the right way

but with your beholding of my esteem and

qualities, I am afraid to move on in life without

you. I don't need you, I'm not quite sure, though

I came from you. I will always love you.