you are used to winter to stop the cold

 you were made to shield out the freezing wind 

Who knew you could keep out the ice cycles of societal expectations that pierces my confidence - 

My hoodies are my shield that protects me 

Protects me from the nails that peg beauty standards

My hoodies hide the insecurities that control me

The brick wall that separates me from the world

My hoodie protects me from the snow and cold rain

That my mother told me was safe to play in until i got frostbite

Somewhere that was supposed to be safe is filled with dangers

Of ice cores slippery streets and frozen over runways

I never go out without my hoodie anymore

I won't be hurt by the pain of winter

I'm scared of the seasons that the world pushes on me 

And girls around the world harsh rays of the sun

Burning girls with high expectations and eating disorders

Leaving them scarred with sunburn of the world’s degree

So I wear them every season

The sunburn frostbite and cold rain

That scar my skin like a knife 

making it hard to smile at me

Such ugly scars the world will know I’m not perfect

I hide my imperfection behind the cloth

It helps me feel safe 

In summer it's hard it not safe seeing the beach makes me anxious

All the hazards of the world all the beautiful girls and women with perfect t-shirts

But yet I'm still hidden in my hoodie because t-shirts because it doesn't suit me

One day my hoodie will only be worn in fall and winter

The seasons are harsh but my confidence will be strong one day strong

Because my hoodie makes me feel safe.