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How I’ve Learned to Keep my Heartbeats Small Inside a Growing Chest

December 7, 2021
By lusomers BRONZE, Fort Wayne, Indiana
lusomers BRONZE, Fort Wayne, Indiana
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How am I supposed to act as if we didn’t punch 

Through screen doors with red popsicle remains 


Dripping down our chins? As if we didn’t lie 

Belly up in the crook of Lake Michigan,


Seeing how long we can stand the waves

Pounding us into the shore. As if we didn’t tiptoe 


Around the forest in the dead of night

To see stars that the world had hidden 


From us until now. Back to a time 

Where we wanted nothing more 


Than to expand. There was no sucking

In stomachs or straightening hair from 


Its natural spring. We begged our parents

To give us more space to take up,


So they gave us the world outside. 

Your dad used to tell us that visible ribs 


Showed lack of nourishment. Back then 

We saw ribs as containers for the magic


Swirling inside us. Now, ribs are merely 

A protector for whatever remains of our hearts,

Shrinking and expanding. 


The author's comments:

I wrote this piece with the idea of speaking to my cousin who recently lost her father. I wanted to capture how grief corrodes childhood innocence. 


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