Why is it always me who messes up?

Why am I the reason for your heartbreak?

How come I have to pretend? 

Pretend never being the one doesn’t take everything I've ever held onto to        away 

That spark died that night 

I chose my fears     my insecurities shining through

Like a hand clawing at me heart 

Over 

and over 

again 

Carrying the weight of your world on my back 

Turns to being pulled beneath the surface too 

Suffocating in your lies 

Now there’s no return 

All my fault         No way out 

Why can’t anyone see I’m slowly fading? 

Chapter closed that night 

You convinced me to go back and reread you 

You are just in the story 

And me    the narrator 

Is threatening to kill you

All I can do is my best 

Step out of line and            

I'm gone 

Just trying to find the light through life you’re shoving me in 

Getting nothing in return 

Always the problem until       

I am called crazy 

And everyone believes                    

You